I am an introvert.  A lot of times I don't think people understand that whether they've been told or not.  I don't always like to talk, on the contrary, unless I have something to say I rarely talk.  And I don't like to be talked to all the time, mainly because I have no idea how to respond to people.  I'm not socially inept I just literally don't know how to respond to people most of the time. 
And I need to be left alone sometimes.  People just don't get that I guess.  If I don't have time to myself to recharge I can't function properly.  It can be tough in a relationship if this is not understood.  I want to spend time with people some of the time, but most of the time I can't do it. 
I have no idea where I'm going with this. 
That is all.

So I've developed a nice bout of depression lately.  Maybe it's because my birthday is in two weeks and I always seem to get depressed around this time.  I think I'm unhappy with where I am on some subconscious level.  I am happy with my life as it is, but I think subconsciously I'm unhappy with what I've accomplished.  The only thing I feel I've accomplished in my adult life that means anything was meeting my wife and getting married.  I dropped out of college.  I've never had a "good" job.  I have no savings, and poor credit.  I realize all these things, and I know that happiness is the most important thing in my life.  And I am happy.  But this goddamn depression really makes me think of all that shit I listed above.  I keep telling myself that one day I will be better off financially and I will fix all my problems.  I don't believe it of course.  So I guess I'll just trudge on through life and make the best of it.

Here we go.  I'm not doing this for recognition or popularity.  I feel that at times I have something to say, and this is where that will go.  I could care less if anyone reads this.  I don't give a fuck if people don't like it, or don't agree with my opinions.  This is not for you.  This is what I think.  That is all.