So I've developed a nice bout of depression lately.  Maybe it's because my birthday is in two weeks and I always seem to get depressed around this time.  I think I'm unhappy with where I am on some subconscious level.  I am happy with my life as it is, but I think subconsciously I'm unhappy with what I've accomplished.  The only thing I feel I've accomplished in my adult life that means anything was meeting my wife and getting married.  I dropped out of college.  I've never had a "good" job.  I have no savings, and poor credit.  I realize all these things, and I know that happiness is the most important thing in my life.  And I am happy.  But this goddamn depression really makes me think of all that shit I listed above.  I keep telling myself that one day I will be better off financially and I will fix all my problems.  I don't believe it of course.  So I guess I'll just trudge on through life and make the best of it.